The Digger

This piece was written while I was in solitary confinement; the Hole. If they wanted to threaten you, the Hole was referred to as the Digger. Many found any time spent here to be excruciating. In my psychosis I made peace with some of my time there.

I don’t look at what’s behind me in here, it’s just my ass. Most would not understand what I find entertaining in here. It is essentially everything. When they unlock my food slot a whole new world opens up for me. I can see light and hear things I am usually deprived of. I’m quite certain no one knows I’m here. I am unimpressed with the jail postcards. What parent doesn’t long for a glossy photo of their child in handcuffs or shackles? If this were an amusement park I could put my head in various cut outs. My friends would be amused to see my head poking out of the stocks or writhing at the whipping post. The Hole is visually boring, oh the good old days. It might be fun to have a cut-out of the Warden with his arm about my shoulder. If I wasn’t alone I might rally the others into forming a sculpture of the Warden at yard. We could pose in front of him or hang from his flabby jowls.

His rules are simple and we laugh at the comfort they provide. Without my mattress during the day I might not appreciate her at night. You devise ways to break me without knowing me. You expect me to pound on this door and beg for release but if I can’t be alone there is little hope for me. Dear Digger you complete me.

4 thoughts on “The Digger

    • It’s not very often we are alone for more than a few hours. It’s unfortunate some people don’t spend more time with themselves, they might discover someone worth knowing.

  1. I agree with mindfulness4now. I really like that. And you are right, people should be a little more comfortable with themselves. I take myself out to a sit down lunch every once in a while and I have to tell you that I LOVE it. I’ve been asked if it doesn’t feel weird. My response is “weird is having to talk while I’d rather be eating and enjoying myself” I look forward to my lunch dates with… myself. 😉

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